I was getting worried mostly because Ben was not been taking his calls. I had tried this number several times earlier but he did not pick up and now the phone was switched off.
I wandered if Ben did not want to see or hear from me anymore. I couldn't believe his love for me had died so fast.
I walked up to my small library and to my greatest surprise I saw Gbenga (my elder brother)
" when did you arrive? How did you get in" I asked him i shock.
" The back door was open so I thought i would surprise you. By the way, I arrived last week but I was very busy but I decided nothing was going to take my time today except my kid sister" he said and handed me a bag. I opened it and took out the lovely purple dress.
" wow! It's so beautiful. You just seem to know my taste. Thank you brother"
"Which taste? This is better than your taste oh" we both laughed.
The moment reminded me of old times when Gbenga would always buy me things when coming from school and would also tease me a lot. He had travelled to China for about five years for some business trip and so I was glad to see him.
" Ehen how is Ben? Hope he is ready to tie the knot now?" He said to me overly excited as if to say we were wasting too much time.
" Me and Ben are over!" I said and looked away. Even I could not believe I had said it was over. Had I already accepted the fact that it was really over?
* * * *
I could not believe my eyes. I saw my daughter lying lifeless. I searched for tears but I couldn't find a drop. I wanted to fall to the ground but it appeared my body had given up while standing. My hands where shaking my teeth were grinding. My heart was piercing but the pain still was not enough. I yelled like a madman "I want more! Is this all?"
* * * *
I picked up my phone to dial Bisi's number because I desperately needed someone to talk to. It had not been easy for me since three weeks back when I lost Sarah in a car accident. Nnena was still in the hospital recovering but I was told she would not be able to use her legs anymore.
"Let me try it one last time if she doesn't pick, I would go to her house" I said to myself.
As i approached her house, I wandered what I would say to her to beg for her forgiveness for not even calling her or picking her calls all this while when it was clearly not her fault we had issues.
" Please I want to see Bisi, I've been knocking at her gate for a while now but there is no response" I said to a young man seated close to her gate. I guessed he would be a gateman in one of the houses.
" oh! Madam Bisi iyaf travel go China with eem brother last week"
I held my head and walked out regretting everything.
I went to the hospital to pick my wife on the wheel chair and rolled her to the car
" So much for wanting it all. I ended up with nothing"
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